Allison Holker Shares tWitch’s Final Words to Their Eldest Daughter

Allison Holker

is sharing new details about her late husband Stephen “twitch” Boss’ final days before his untimely death.

The morning before Boss went missing, Holker, 36, said her husband dropped their eldest daughter, Weslie, off at school. His final words to her were, “I wish I could be your Superman.”

“Having someone say last words to you that you didn’t really process at the time as being anything wrong … that’s really hard, especially as a teenager,” Holker told People in an interview published Tuesday, January 7. “She handles it with far more grace than she should have to.”

Boss died by suicide at age 40 in December 2022. He shared Weslie, 16, Maddox, 8, and Zaia, 5, with Holker.

More than two years after Boss’ unexpected death, Holker is ready to share a glimpse into her family’s ongoing healing journey in a new memoir titled This Far: My Story of Love, Loss, and Embracing the Light.  

Holker said she and her kids began intense therapy in 2023 in the wake of the late DJ’s death, and as a result, learned that “it’s OK to not be OK.”

“We took the steps to really help [Weslie] and communicate with her and make her feel seen and heard,” Holker shared while acknowledging that her eldest daughter was the last family member to see Boss alive. “I think she also sees those words as something beautiful, and also ugly. It’s a battle that she’s going to always have with herself, but I know she can see it from both sides.”

Since Boss’ death, Holker has teamed up with multiple mental health organizations, including the National Alliance of Mental Illness and Maple Counseling, to spread awareness about the importance of mental health.

She also remains determined to be the best possible parent she can be to her three children.

“The No. 1 thing I want to do for Weslie is give her the strength to handle anything that she is facing,” she said. “That’s really what I want for my kids. Just keep taking steps forward. Things are going to come hit you, and that’s OK.”

While Holker continues to learn about the private struggles of her late husband, the So You Think You Can Dance alum is taking advantage of the people and resources who can be helpful.

“I’m not going to have closure. My kids aren’t going to have closure,” she said of her husband’s passing. “That’s still something I’m still trying to understand myself, which is why therapy is wonderful.”

This Far: My Story of Love, Loss, and Embracing the Light is available February 4.

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